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September 21, 2004
Increased tolerance...
I don't see myself as an un-fair kinda guy, but now I see myself being just that.
There is someone out there I just don't get along with and it's now becoming a major issue. It's effetcing someone who's really close to me, to the point of tears actually. I hate that I can make someone cry for feeling the way I do.
I've been asked to give said person another chance and I'm gonna, only because it's important to that special someone. Now I find myself wondering how much le-way should I give?
A few months back this person who I have an issue with treated me so badly in front of my parents that it caused a fight between my mother and I. We fought because she felt I was letting him mistreat me because of the "someone close" to me. I told my mom they had a past, which in retrospect, not a good idea. Either way her reason might've been true, but boy did I let that someone close to me hear about it later. In looking back to even before that parent incident, he's been doing those kinda things for quite a while. Ignoring me when I asked a question, slamming me about not knowing stuff about that someone we have in common, talking down to me, etc. All the while mr. someone we have in common knew nothing, or maybe just didn't wanna say anything. He hates confrontation. Lucky for me, I have a big mouth. problem is, I choose to use it on the wrong person. Alot.
*sigh*
So now I await my next trial by fire session with said person. I know that the person I'm doing this for is way worth the increased tolerance. I just hope I have the strength for it.
Posted by roque at September 21, 2004 06:00 PM